I’m 38 and finally getting honest. Like really honest. Like most people, I think, we don’t get honest until we HAVE to. That was the case for me anyway. I’ve kept a secret for nearly 10 years. Yep, that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to air my dirty laundry- which is a funny expression that literally means something different than what it figuratively means. Like being a devil’s advocate- but that’s a topic for a different day. I’m going to air my dirty laundry so 1) it doesn’t stink up my house anymore and 2) because nature cleans. The sun purifies. So this is me, all of me- the good, bad, and ugly… out there for the world to see. I hope I’ll inspire you to air your dirty laundry, too. I’ll grab the soap and let’s let the Light bleach out our dark spots 🙂

I like to write my thoughts. There’s something cathartic about handwriting- letting the energy flow out of your fingertips, through a pen, and scratching onto paper. I’m sure there are ways to transcribe written thought into type but I’m not very techy and I just neeeed to get this all out of me before I lose my brave again and squelch my soul for another 10 years. 

I’ve struggled with writing. There are a few reasons for this, but the most significant one is trauma based. The crazy thing about trauma is that often what’s hurt you, when reframed and reclaimed, is also what heals you. It’s taken me 38 years to reframe and reclaim writing and sharing MY truth. We all have a truth inside of us and I don’t think it’s possible to find The Truth until we move through our own truth, weed out what fits and what doesn’t, and once we know who we really are, at our core, (something the LGBTQ+ community is doing SO well and MANY praises to them for teaching us all how to shine!) we can discern what we want to keep, what we want to get rid of, and what needs to change. I’m not a scientist but I imagine this is the process for developing medicines that fix us. This process of discovery, raw soul discovery, I imagine is just like that. Why we don’t encourage more of it is beyond my current understanding. As Jim Gaffigan would say, “So simple.”

So, welcome. Welcome to a nearly 4 decade long journey of becoming and unbecoming, doing and undoing, being force fed a lie and now purging my truth.